Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Submission - listening to my body. Nai Harn, Thailand.
Today I gave in.
Life is not as it should be and I decided to make an appointment to see a doctor.
I was persuaded to do this by the blood pressure monitor.
My readings were higher than normal - 140 plus. Normally my BP is about 110 over 65.
One time this afternoon I took it again...hell's teeth! 159 over 84.
It is lower than that now.
Having accepted that I needed advice, I crumpled a bit....acknowledging just how rotten I have been feeling.
Tomorrow Dr Alexander will either tell me that nothing much is wrong and I must be patient or I will get sent for blood tests.... and waiting for results will require patience too.
So, I haven't done much today. When I try to do anything I begin to feel too nauseous and faint.
I do try to keep positive and keep up the fight, but the walk at Wakehurst Place that we thought might be a possibility just felt like too much.
Bill has had medical appointments of his own today - a check up with the dentist and a visit to the osteopath.
Pictures from Thailand today feature Nai Harn, a long bay at the southern end of the west coast of Phuket.
The waves always seem to be bigger there than in the north.
It was Monday - Jamie was at work and the children still had a few more days of school before the long holiday.
A few surfers were out - maybe practising for an international competition that was due to take place a few days later.
Low season - a near empty beach. Sunbeds were out, but there were few holiday makers taking advantage of them.
I really don't know why I was holding my stomach - there were no problems.
Its that surfer again! I was filled with wonder - at his antics and that his hat stayed on.
Our table looked out across the water.
Bill waits for dinner.
That's my dinner - too much really.
Jessica devised a game using the bottle tops. They were both fully absorbed, though I am not sure that either of them knew what their objectives were..... except to win.
Life is not as it should be and I decided to make an appointment to see a doctor.
I was persuaded to do this by the blood pressure monitor.
My readings were higher than normal - 140 plus. Normally my BP is about 110 over 65.
One time this afternoon I took it again...hell's teeth! 159 over 84.
It is lower than that now.
Having accepted that I needed advice, I crumpled a bit....acknowledging just how rotten I have been feeling.
Tomorrow Dr Alexander will either tell me that nothing much is wrong and I must be patient or I will get sent for blood tests.... and waiting for results will require patience too.
So, I haven't done much today. When I try to do anything I begin to feel too nauseous and faint.
I do try to keep positive and keep up the fight, but the walk at Wakehurst Place that we thought might be a possibility just felt like too much.
Bill has had medical appointments of his own today - a check up with the dentist and a visit to the osteopath.
Pictures from Thailand today feature Nai Harn, a long bay at the southern end of the west coast of Phuket.
The waves always seem to be bigger there than in the north.
It was Monday - Jamie was at work and the children still had a few more days of school before the long holiday.
A few surfers were out - maybe practising for an international competition that was due to take place a few days later.
Low season - a near empty beach. Sunbeds were out, but there were few holiday makers taking advantage of them.
I really don't know why I was holding my stomach - there were no problems.
Its that surfer again! I was filled with wonder - at his antics and that his hat stayed on.
We walked back along the beach to chose somewhere for a spot of lunch.
Our table looked out across the water.
Bill waits for dinner.
That's my dinner - too much really.
Noodles and a most delicious soup of chicken and coconut milk.
Later we joined up with all the family - we probably dined at the Kathu Waterfall Road cafe.
John collects up lots of bottle tops at the cafe.
Jessica devised a game using the bottle tops. They were both fully absorbed, though I am not sure that either of them knew what their objectives were..... except to win.
Jessica had the upper hand there - for she could change the rules of play to her advantage from time to time!
I heard "No, John...you are only allowed to move one square and I can move 2 squares".
I hope I feel stronger tomorrow. Our good friends Pete and Jean, from North Wales, have planned to spend the day with us.
"One day at a time".....and all that!
